Have you ever seen a sunrise
Quite like this?
The morning after
That last phone call?
It seems so fake
Like beauty isn't real
And it burns your skin
Just like your heart.
Have you ever seen a sunrise
That seemed to mock you?
The morning after
You lose your happiness?
It's a greater pain
Than being stabbed
And even worse
When nobody knows.
There's that blade on my skin
And I can feel it breaking
Each and every layer
Oh so very thin
And you'll call me names
'Emo, fake, attention whore'
But you don't know why
Because you're soaked in all your fame
So here's to you, a Beast
Lost in all your stuff
I'll be fighting my own battles
While your inner demons feast
You don't bother to talk
While I'm holding my head up forcefully
So say good-bye to your life
It'll be a long, long walk
I'm not afraid of the past
Yours is yet to attack
I'm ready, poised
And my mind will last
So harass me all you want
You'll never bring me down
My battle's not a lost cause
You'll see me
They say our generation is lost
With our short skirts and flirty boys
When they don't stop to think
That we looked up to the older ones
With their too-busy parenting
And 'just do what yu want' attitude
So we mocked them
And we grew up too soon
So now they blame us
For all this cutting and shaming
Our hypocritical youth
Where we fight against
Our revealing clothes
And our hidden scars
And our constant harassment
But in reality
We don't wanna change
We say to everyone
'This is who I am,
You can't make me different'
When we always had the chance
But you'd rather make yourself better
For something that won't matter
And you'
People always say the words
They say they don't mean it
And they don't
Because they don't see the end
The box with your body
Being put six feet under
So lift your head high
You'll be alright
Or that's what they say
The same ones that tell you
'You're not good enough,
Not pretty or skinny enough.'
They'll beat you to the ground
Then call for help
Because that's all that matters
Is what happens in the end.
Whatever happened to
'I love you'?
And those happy memories
That are faded away
Like and old photograph
Take me back
Show me the truth
Not these old lies
Sitting here with buzzing flies
And tears rising high
Was it worth it?
All those unspoken words
Hurting me like knives
Did you know this would happen?
All the blood spilled out
In the form of tears
And unspoken fears
And your unending leer
Is the end near?
Or is it just beginning?
Here's to you, mom.
Here's to every single lie
Every false 'I love you'
Every time you weren't there
Especially when I needed you.
Whatever a mother should have done
You ignored it
And left it for someone else
So stop wasting your time
On your snide comment
And your harsh words
Stabbing my heart with it's double-edged point
Those words, those insults
They're not just movements in the air
Not just letters mixed together
'You're not good enough'
Hurts just as much as a knife
Piercing my lungs
And stopping my breath.
You can't see the pain
When you cause it
But that doesn't mean
None of it's real.
You'll make excuses
Or say I'm lying
Or exaggerating
Or just being weird
When really,
It's not me.
It's you
And your self-centered ideals
Constantly making me feel left out
Or not good enough
Or make me wanna be dead.
You've said 'I love you'
But never meant it
Because if you loved me
You wouldn't do this
You wouldn't hurt me so bad
I'd rather be dead than keep going
You act like I'm okay
When every day is a new hell
With your screaming
And harassing
And berating
And where's the end?
Where's the promised silver lining?
Is it not there?
Is this some curse that you brought upon me?
When will I be free?
Have you ever seen a sunrise
Quite like this?
The morning after
That last phone call?
It seems so fake
Like beauty isn't real
And it burns your skin
Just like your heart.
Have you ever seen a sunrise
That seemed to mock you?
The morning after
You lose your happiness?
It's a greater pain
Than being stabbed
And even worse
When nobody knows.
There's that blade on my skin
And I can feel it breaking
Each and every layer
Oh so very thin
And you'll call me names
'Emo, fake, attention whore'
But you don't know why
Because you're soaked in all your fame
So here's to you, a Beast
Lost in all your stuff
I'll be fighting my own battles
While your inner demons feast
You don't bother to talk
While I'm holding my head up forcefully
So say good-bye to your life
It'll be a long, long walk
I'm not afraid of the past
Yours is yet to attack
I'm ready, poised
And my mind will last
So harass me all you want
You'll never bring me down
My battle's not a lost cause
You'll see me
They say our generation is lost
With our short skirts and flirty boys
When they don't stop to think
That we looked up to the older ones
With their too-busy parenting
And 'just do what yu want' attitude
So we mocked them
And we grew up too soon
So now they blame us
For all this cutting and shaming
Our hypocritical youth
Where we fight against
Our revealing clothes
And our hidden scars
And our constant harassment
But in reality
We don't wanna change
We say to everyone
'This is who I am,
You can't make me different'
When we always had the chance
But you'd rather make yourself better
For something that won't matter
And you'
People always say the words
They say they don't mean it
And they don't
Because they don't see the end
The box with your body
Being put six feet under
So lift your head high
You'll be alright
Or that's what they say
The same ones that tell you
'You're not good enough,
Not pretty or skinny enough.'
They'll beat you to the ground
Then call for help
Because that's all that matters
Is what happens in the end.
Whatever happened to
'I love you'?
And those happy memories
That are faded away
Like and old photograph
Take me back
Show me the truth
Not these old lies
Sitting here with buzzing flies
And tears rising high
Was it worth it?
All those unspoken words
Hurting me like knives
Did you know this would happen?
All the blood spilled out
In the form of tears
And unspoken fears
And your unending leer
Is the end near?
Or is it just beginning?
Here's to you, mom.
Here's to every single lie
Every false 'I love you'
Every time you weren't there
Especially when I needed you.
Whatever a mother should have done
You ignored it
And left it for someone else
So stop wasting your time
On your snide comment
And your harsh words
Stabbing my heart with it's double-edged point
Those words, those insults
They're not just movements in the air
Not just letters mixed together
'You're not good enough'
Hurts just as much as a knife
Piercing my lungs
And stopping my breath.
You can't see the pain
When you cause it
But that doesn't mean
None of it's real.